Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Accoring to webster: competing means to strive consciously or unconsciously for an objective (as position, profit,or a prize). This past Saturday during my cycling class I thought about being competitive. My cycling instructor was out so we had a sub. This guy was off the map. He had us riding our bikes like "mad men" being chased by a pack of hungry lions. Instantly, I went into shut down mode. This guy was teaching the class as if it was a race for a million dollars. His legs had to be moving about 100 miles a second. It was not fun at all. He was pushing us really hard and telling us to ride faster because we need to pass the 40 people ahead of us. I said "this is not why I came here today and I surly don't want to be in this race. I looked back at the clock 4 times just wishing the hour would go faster. Well, as you know it did not. It went really slow until I silently slapped myself. Now, I had already wasted 30 minutes being mad at the guy and I had 30 more minutes to get over myself. This is what I told myself: Compete! Be competitive with yourself. Work harder for yourself. Don't give in to the crazy lady inside. After that pep talk I went for it and completed the class like a champ. Well, my vision of a champ. I could kick myself for wasting so much time and acting like a big baby.
This "competitive" stuff got me thinking about my lack of competing. I have never been a competitive person because I did not believe in competing with others. My mother raised me to believe in myself and not to worry about others. I do not enjoy competing with others but I love being a cheerleader for them. I have no idea if I want to be competitive during my exercise routine. I really want to figure this competition thing out. I started to wonder if I had been more competitive in my early years could I have avoided being a fat girl.
I have questions:
How can I become a more competitive person? (exercise)
How do you all compete when it comes to exercise?
Still researching foods high in fiber: veggies
Artichoke, cooked - highest
Tomorrow exercise routine: weight lifting and boot camp
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Their next questions was "are you on a diet?" When I explained to them that I had set some food boundaries they looked at me like I was a wild woman running naked down the street. One said loudly "you must be off your rocker!" "Why are you doing that?" The other said "there goes our friendship!" and I turned and said are you guys serious. I ask them "do you really believe my food boundaries will change our friendship?" One said, hell yes! I ask "why do you all believe the friendship will change?" They all agreed that we would not have anything in common. This was like a stab in the heart with a twist. I could not believe that my girls would allow food to ruin the friendship. Okay, this is my reality and I am happy that it came out so soon. I tried to assure them that my new eating behaviors would not impact our relationship at all. They felt because of my changes they would have to set their own food boundaries. I asked them if they wanted to change their behavior and they all said, "no!" I told them that was fine with me and I am okay with their food choices. The girls seemed to be relieved and said they admired me and would support me 100%. This day was a huge turning point in my social life with the girls. Personally, I do not believe they support my food behaviors 100% and for me that is okay. This is my business and life. I can see less social dinners with them. Doctors tell drug addicts, smokers, and drinkers to find a new social group and that is what I have to do. My girls love to eat and eat. I have always been the healthiest eater in the group but I never had boundaries. This is not a big deal to me but it has made others feel uncomfortable. For me to make this work I must stay focus and not let others make me feel bad about my food choices. For the next 3 months I will monitor my social life and document how much it has changed. This might be a wonderful time to welcome some new healthier eaters into my life. This is all new but I am open to the changes.
OMG! my weight lifting instructor beat us down to the ground today. She made us do about 100 lunges, 100 squats, 100 chest press, 100 sit ups and push up, and 100 jumping jacks. This was a true 100% club. After the beating she told us that she loved us very much and pretended to give us a big huggi-hug. We all screamed and fell out. It was a really good class. This month she focused on endurance training to build up our stamina. My stamina has improved about 50% compared to 2 months ago when it was about 15%. I could not do 10 jumping jack but now I can do about 65. My friend and workout partner can do over 100 without breaking a sweat but she is 29 years old and she weighs 99 pounds. The hard work is paying off and I can wait to see myself at the beginning of the year. Next month we will focus on strength training.
I have been researching fruits high in fiber and here is what I found:
Raspberries - is the highest
These are all favorites of mine and will be eating more of them.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thanks to all for the positive feedback regarding boundaries vs moderation. This week I was able to put my boundary list in play. My list will includes foods with no "nutritional value". By valuing what goes into my body I will never have to ask myself "why did you eat that?" I attended a wedding party on Tuesday and I was able to walk away from the cake without hesitation. I munched out on the fruit in the picture. It was a rewarding feeling. Yesterday, at work a coworker brought in donuts for the office and I was able to stay away. I can not justify eating these foods so that is why they must be on this list. I will have a short list on Monday.
Monday, September 21, 2009
According to the website dictionary online the word "boundary" means, something that indicates a border or limit.
When I think of the word boundary a picture of a house surrounded by a fence comes into view. I have been a pro at setting boundaries when it comes to people but not when it comes to food. I have two boundary categories when it comes to people.
Cat 1: Shield boundary - this category is flexible. I can move the shield up and down when necessary. Everyone I meet starts out in this category.
Cat 2: Wall boundary - this category is not flexible. You have no chance of breaking it down or climbing over it. Folks in this category has cause me a lot of unnecessary drama and pain. These folks are toxic and not good for my soul because they have proven themselves to be this way. Fortunately for me, I can count less than 5 people that fit in this category.
So, I started to think about boundaries and food. The media and health authors will say, "eat in moderation". According to dictionary online the word "moderation" means within reasonable limits, not excessive or extreme. That is fine but there should be more to the story. To me, moderation is not the word to use when it comes to food. I have decided to use the word "boundaries" and to put certain foods in the boundary category. For me, looking back over the years the word moderation has been my down fall. Moderation is an easy out to get off track and continue to make the same mistakes. I would not tell a person addictive to drugs to only us in moderation. My moderation is different from my neighbors. That word has to be tossed out when it comes to my health. It's all or none. I need to see foods in the boundary category. So the question is "which foods have contributed to my weight gain?" Which foods qualify for the "category 2-wall boundary?"
It's easy to put people in categories because their actions are mostly direct. If a person continues to cause you drama, they lie, they cheat, or just toxic you can make that boundary decision right way or overtime. For me food is harder to categorize. I do not believe only junk food will cause you to be fat. If a person consumed only ice cream for 1 month, I do not think they will gain weight. I believe they will lose because ice cream is the only food eaten. Now, they might feel sick for that month. So, for me to put certain foods in category 2 I must be willing to put that wall up and never bring it down. To do this I must go real deep inside and think about my food decisions. What will happen to my social life? What about parties? What about the holidays? What about my cravings? When eating in moderation you don't have to think as hard because there is flexibility. For me flexibility with certain foods have caused me trouble. I believe eating with boundaries might be hard at first but knowing the list will make it easier in the end. I want to be at peace with the foods I eat from this day on. It sucks to look back after eating and saying "why did I eat that?" It's time to think about the foods that cause us to make that statement. It's time for food boundaries!
"The Wall" category is very final. So, for the next week I am going to make a list of all the foods that deserve to be in this category. I will post the list next Monday. It's going to be interesting because I will be negotiating with myself. Cake over cookies, chips over ice cream, fried chicken over mashed potatoes w/gravy. I have to think about my life which includes social events and times when I crave certain foods. Are there options? What are my options? Yes, this is extreme but I need to make these decisions now. I feel happy about it because once the decision is made I will not have to think about it again. It's like saying no to trouble before it happens. The purpose of having boundaries is to protect and take care of ourselves. This must be done!
This week exercise routine: 3 weight lifting classes, 1 Yoga, 1 Pilate's, 1 Boot Camp, 1 Cycling and 1 Aqua
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Today my "core central" instructor talked to us about getting ready for the holidays. According to new research, during the holiday season the average American will gain 8 pounds between October 15 - January 15. Researchers also found that the average American will reduce their exercise routine by 50% because of holiday parties and shopping. She encourage us to put ourselves first during this time.
Her advice to us was the following:
1. Make a promise to workout and eat healthy during this time.
2. Weigh yourself at least once a week to stay on track.
3. Keep food portions small and drink plenty of water.
4. Consult a trainer if the routine is off track.
My instructor is very current on the new research because she just graduated in June with a dual Master in Nutrition and Kinesiology. It appears she really cares about our health and well being.
Picture: I took this picture in Central Park, New York during one of my $169.00 round trip flight from San Diego to New York. If the price is right I will fly almost anywhere. I was there for only 3 days and I had a blast! I was able to visist all the tourist spots and eat at a few awesome restaurant's. New York is on my favorite top 5 cities visited. My 1st and all time favorite was Washington, D.C. and Chicago is my 2nd favorite.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday started out with a Pilates class in the morning. The class proved to live up to its benefits which includes the following: improve strength, flexbility, balance, tone, and challenge deep abdominal muscles to the support the core. My abdominals and legs muscles are very sore today. The soreness is shocking because of my weekly workout rountine; it goes to show that I still have muscles that need to be worked.
Pilates is part of my workout routine to enhance my physical appearance, in other words it's a great class for molding and shaping. Pilates can not stand alone when it comes to dropping weight, so strength training and cardio must be part of a weekly workout plan.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
This picture represent the end of my road trip. By the time this house in Seattle, WA looks like this again I will be down 30 pounds (%) and celebrating the end of my weight loss road trip. This picture was taken in late January during one of Seattle's lovely snow days. The holidays are coming!
Saw my doctor this morning for a sinus infection that went into my left ear. My ear was so bad that she called in her physician interns to take a look for future problems like this. By their reaction, my ear made their day worth while. Okay, just heal me doctors! She put me on a nasal spray, antibiotic and sinus tabs to clear this mess up. She could not believe how much fluid was behind my eardrum. I have had this condition for two weeks so I decided to make the appointment. My belief is that the fires in Los Angeles are causing a lot of people here to have sinus problems because of all the ash in the air. Los Angeles is 100 miles north of us so it is crazy to think how far ash can travel. My friend has to clean the ash out of her pool everyday.
Next we talked about my weight. I ask for a weight recommendation. She looked at me and said that she is okay with my weight because I exercise and eat well. I mentioned that I was trying to drop 110 pounds, she flipped-out. She said "absolutely not" I was shocked with her response. I stood up for her and she took some measurements and recommended 30 pounds with caution. She explained that I appear to be smaller than I am because of my height and bone structure. Because of me positive attitude about life and my body image she feels comfortable with my weight as it is today, but because I want to shape up she agreed that reducing the fat over my belly, inner thighs and butt would not be a bad idea. She agreed that I would not be considered an obese person in the medical world because of the way I appear to carry my weight. To my surprise there is no documentation about me being obese in my chart of 18 years but it does mention my concerns with maintaining weight and exercising over the years. The 30 pound recommendation has to do with shaping and molding my body. She believes if I drop this amount of fat I would be even happier with life and fit in my clothes a lot better. So, according to her a 110 pound drop in weight could harm me in the end. Finally, she told not to worry about what researcher recommend as the ideal weight.
Wow, Wow, Wow, total shocker to my plan. This changes everything for the better because I will reach my goal sooner then planned. My plan is to work just as hard as before. I would love to have this body molded by the end of January or before the first snow storm in Seattle, WA. My body fat stands at 48 so by reducing it by 30% would put me at 18%. This might sound crazy but I will look at 30 pounds as 30% fat reduction. It's about peeling off the layers.
Despite of my sinus problem I made it to my weight lifting class. I was not part of the 100% club but I was there just working out at 82%. The instructor had her own sinus problems that sent her to the ER just three hour before class. They gave her a shot in the butt and sent her home. She could not find a sub for her class so she came but taught the class without doing the exercises. True dedication on her part. My hero for the day!So happy right now.....
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Someone ask, "can I do it?" and my aswer was "Hell Yes!" There is nothing to do but to do it. It's total logic to me. Being fat girl is irritating, uncomfortable, bothersome and annoying. They all mean the same but that is fat girl to me. Doing the work is the best part of my road trip because it is for me. Finally!
My heart and mind can not wait to see skinny girl. I have not seen her in 20 years. She is my driving force to the end.
Click and see the pier! My goal is to run it without stopping before the end of the month. It's very long but I can do it and I will!