Today I need to talk about the doors that are behind me now. I have named all my weight realizations doors. Since this journey begun in late July I have walked through many doors to get to this period in my life. These doors are the ones I have left open or cracked for over 20 years. These doors have been my confusions, distractions, burdens, heartaches, justifications, and enablers. I have listed these doors by name and reasons for keeping them open in the past.
1. Door of distraction - inside this door I had to face what was keeping me from dropping the weight. This door gave me freedom to give-up on me and my goals. Before I could close this door behind I had say no to giving up and yes to drop the weight. I decided to focus on myself for 6 months and not allow anything or anyone to stand in my way. So, I decided to get out of my own way and make it happen. I have locked this door behind me never to open it again.
2. Door of a unhealthy eating - inside this door I had to face the fact that my eating habits were unhealthy for my life. I had to question everything that went into my body because if I did not my health would have continue to decline and my weight would have continued to increase. All my attempts to reduce the weight in the past failed because I never took the time to educate myself on healthy eating habits or setting food boundaries. But now I have locked this door behind me never to open it again.
3. Door of inactivity - inside this door I had to face the truth that the lack in exercise was bad for my health. I had to face the fact that exercise is important on this journey and I had to give 100% everyday. Exercise has played a huge roll in my weight reduction so it must be in the plan. Now this door is locked behind me never to open again.
There are so many doors that I have locked behind me never to open again. I am so happy that I allowed myself to face these doors head-on and deal with them ASAP. These doors are my past and path to a healthier me. I have to thank God for giving me the wisdom and love for myself to walk through these doors. There will be many doors to go through and I look forward to that walk because in the end I will be a better person for it.
Exercise: missed class today because I had a meeting so I will be hitting the cardio blast really hard tomorrow and Saturday.
Food: No cravings for sweets or fatty foods. My boundary list is working very well.
You are doing so well with your lifestyle changes! Most people don't try to "get to the bottom" of things, but you are and I think that will make this a forever change for you.
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